变了...?不了解了...?

是我变了...

还是...

你不了解我了...?

谁伤害了谁...?

为了做到不伤害他人...

我却一直在伤害自己...

并且只能默默承受...

做好人就是那么不公平...



Catch My Breath - Kelly Clarkson

don't wanna be left behind
Distance was a friend of mine
Catching breath in a web of lies
I've spent most of my life
Riding waves, playing acrobat
Shadowboxing the other half
Learning how to react
I've spent most of my time

Catching my breath, letting it go, turning my cheek for the sake of this show
Now that you know, this is my life, I won't be told what's supposed to be right

Catch my breath, no one can hold me back, I ain't got time for that
Catch my breath, won't let them get me down, it's all so simple now

Addicted to the love I found
Heavy heart, now a weightless cloud
Making time for the ones that count
I'll spend the rest of my time
Laughing hard with the windows down
Leaving footprints all over town
Keeping faith kinda comes around
I will spent the rest of my life

Catching my breath, letting it go, turning my cheek for the sake of this show
Now that you know, this is my life, I won't be told what's supposed to be right

Catch my breath, no one can hold me back, I ain't got time for that
Catch my breath, won't let them get me down, it's all so simple now

You helped me see
The beauty in everything

Catching my breath, letting it go, turning my cheek for the sake of this show
Now that you know, this is my life, I won't be told what's supposed to be right

Catching my breath, letting it go, turning my cheek for the sake of this show
Now that you know, this is my life, I won't be told what's supposed to be right

Catch my breath!

Catch my breath, no one can hold me back, I ain't got time for that
Catch my breath, won't let them get me down, it's all so simple now (it's all so simple now!)

Catching my breath, letting it go, turning my cheek for the sake of this show
Now that you know, this is my life, I won't be told what's supposed to be right

Catch my breath, no one can hold me back, I ain't got time for that
Catch my breath, won't let them get me down, it's all so simple now

安慰...

"不要哭,没事的..."

为何我安慰得了别人,,,

却安慰不了我自己...

你痛的呻吟...和我痛的心...

看着痛苦的你...

痛在心里的我...

却无法为你做什么...

多想为你分担一些痛苦...

你知道吗...?

没你在身边...

我顿时感到非常空虚...

你一定要坚强...振作...快快好起来...

知道吗...?

因为我...很想念你...

我有好多话想对你说...

2012年8月30号...

上午11.00...雨天...

是一个你永远最恶梦的日子...

是一个我永远最恨的下雨天...

为什么在你最痛苦最难过的时候...

我却不在你身边...

该说对不起的是我...

而不是你...

对不起...

不存在...

我不存在...

是因为你们早就当我不存在...


勉勉强强...

活着...

是为了什么...?

为了勉勉强强の过日子...

变了吗...?

我变了...

是因为...

你变了...

Dark Side - Kelly Clarkson

There's a place that i knowit's not pretty there and few have ever goneif i show it to you nowwill it make you run away
or will you stayeven if it hurtseven if i try to push you outwill you return?and remind me who i really amplease remind me who i really am
everybody's got a dark sidedo you love me?can you love mine?nobody's a picture perfectbut we're worth ityou know that we're worth itwill you love me?even with my dark side?
like a diamondfrom black dustit's hard to knowwhat can becomeIf you give upso don't give up on meplease remind me who i really am
everybody's got a dark sidedo you love me?can you love mine?nobody's a picture perfectbut we're worth ityou know that we're worth itwill you love me?even with my dark side?
don't run awaydon't run awayjust tell me that you will staypromise me you will staydon't run awaydon't run awayjust promise me you will staypromise me you will stay
will you love me? ohh
everybody's got a dark sidedo you love me?can you love mine?nobody's a picture perfectbut we're worth ityou know that we're worth itwill you love me?even with my dark side?

为了...生活吗...?

生活...
是为了做自己喜欢の事...

而为了生活...
都在做自己不喜欢の事...















何为梦想...?何为愿望...?

对我而言...

梦想...就只能梦着想...

愿望...就只能远远地望...

够了 - 卓文萱

转了几个弯 停了几个站
天亮了 迷路了 你没有过问
挽回几次了 烦心几遍了
哭过几次才懂得我剩一个人

不想再爱了 不想舍不得
不想要变成 最后认输的人
想哭想疯想忘了
你曾是我爱的那个人
不想再爱了 不想再痛了
就算会失去了天份
我想安稳 我想完整
我想我受的伤够了

思念一个人 也寂寞的人
拥有的 失去了 我害怕什么
独自一个人 独自面对着
挥不散你的体温 挣脱又如何

不想再爱了 不想舍不得
不想要变成 最后认输的人
想哭想疯想忘了
你曾是我爱的那个人
不想再爱了 不想再痛了
就算会失去了天份
我想安稳 我想完整
我想我受的伤够了

诚实的面对我自己 想摆脱记忆
在破碎之后能永远忘记你
不想再爱了 不想舍不得
不想要变成 最后认输的人
想哭想疯想忘了
你曾是我爱的那个人
不想再爱了 不想再痛了
就算会失去了天份
我想安稳 我想完整
我想我受的伤够了

够了

沉默...

我之所以保持沉默…
不是因为我默认…
而是因为我不想引起争吵…

很抱歉…
我已经很累了…
没力气跟你吵...
也懒得理你...

罪人…

圣经上说...

当孝敬父母...
因父母的地位应受尊崇...
要尊重、恭敬长辈...
要几代同堂...
和睦相处...
努力齐家...
要有禮貌...
因为那是一種溫柔的表現...

这些都是最基本的人生道德...

但是...
如果连最基本的一点也没做到...
那请问...
有何资格自认是基督教徒么...?

只是让神和人感到失望...

累啊~

这几天又开始失眠了...

要睡时睡不着...

要醒时却又醒不来...

精神被折磨...o(╯□╰)o

既熟悉又陌生...

终于...

还是回到过去...

回到熟悉...

却又陌生の地方...

感受


我努力地照顧每個人的感受...

自己却注定不好受...

我是女生...吗...?

我是女生の外表...

但是...

却不能像一般女生打扮修眉洗脸...
不能像一般女生弄美甲...
不能像一般女生穿得淑女...
不能像一般女生做保养...

那...我是女生有什么用...?
只不过是个非常表面外壳...?
好可悲...

这辈子...

我活着..

不过是...

只为了两件事...

一就是为别人而活...

二就是为别人的生活而活...

Never & Neither...

反正我做什么...

做得多好...
做得多棒...

依然无法挽回你们那一眼...
和一句安慰鼓励的话...

Whatever i done...
u never say well done...
u never say i m doing right...
u never appreciate...
u never listern to me...
NEVER...

我注定此生只是一个默默的幕后人...
说难听点就是...
什么也不是...
NEITHER...

什么意思...

你们高高贵贵的在上做焦点...

而我却要在后收拾你们留下一大堆的烂摊子...

我这辈子的痛恨...

我不贪心...
因为...

我这辈子只痛恨一个人和一只动物...

解释是为了....?

懂我的人...
不必解釋...

不懂我的人...
何必解釋...

没钱又没能力...唉...

有钱者...使用钱找能力者...
能力者...使用能力找有钱者...
有钱又有能力者...什么都不愁了...

但是...
没钱又没能力者...该找什么人去呢...?